Wednesday, January 2, 2013


Sometimes, I lose things! Like my keys ( thanks to fatman) sometimes, it might be somthing else. I can honestly, say I have never lost one of my precious cargo. So, the reason for my lack of posts, is to be quite honest I lost my user name and password. so I do apoligze for the lack of posts for the last year or so.. lol I shall make up for that!

Monday, April 2, 2012

Been away...

Well its been a while since I posted so I should start getting back into it!

Keep close for updates, journal entries and just tidbits of information.
For those wondering where I have been hiding. Well here is a quick rundown of the last 18 months!
Start school, finished school, graduated, got a job, quit that job, got another job started a AMAZING excited job with loads of possibilities and lots of potential and Here I am back Blogging!

I will post an update very shortly with plenty of information and exciting tributes to the things that make me go HMM!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Steph's Ramblings: 4 years and it still feels like yesterday..

Steph's Ramblings: 4 years and it still feels like yesterday..

4 years and it still feels like yesterday..

Dear Dan,
its been a strange long 4 years. The night you left changed everything for all of us.

Over the last 4 years I have remained strong, I have fought, succeeded and done whatever needs to be done within my moral compass to keep the children and John on the right paths. I did this because this is what you asked of me

4 years ago, I never got to tell you how much I respected you, how proud I was and how shocked I was at some of your crazy antics. I never got to tell you that even if I didn't get the Murray Millions that I would still be here 15 years later to love and cherish your only son.
I didnt get a chance to tell your ambition, determination and love for your family was inspirational. I never got the chance to tell you that your impromptu visits were exciting, and I enjoyed your visits. Even if you didnt think so. I never got to tell you that when you left the sigh you heard was not of relief but regret that you were leaving and wondering when you'd be back. I didnt get to thank you for giving my children the best memories to cherish, I never told you that Keegan wanted you to apologize for that argument in the hallway and never got the chance. I wanted to tell you John is a great husband and Dad, even if there are times I really want to duct tape him to the roof!, that I would do my very best to honor and be the best partner for him I could be. and be the one to take redirect him when he was making figure 8's with the lawn mower or trying to smuggle in yet another DOG.( oh yes, Fatman he learnt from the best didn't he?)

I also want to tell you that I would remind Barbie and Christine how much you cared each time they felt alone and scared they were letting you down AND how damn proud you are of both of them for everything they have accomplished.

I wanted to let you know that no matter what you said, did or how you spoke I understood everything you ever said to me. I took your advice and have worked diligently to ensure that I have built strong relationships in the most important parts of my life.

I know I never asked for anything, you found that odd but not once could I bring myself to ask anything of you when you were giving so much of yourself to others who were far more in dire need then I was at any time. I know you understood this.

I do have to admit one thing. I did lie to twice. well okay four times. First about the chickens yes, the dog ate them. It was the stupid chickens fault she stood there and let the dog get a hold of him. But dont blame the dog apparently the chicken was lulled by the dogs cobra like charms and well you can guess the rest..... 2. that snake was really about 4 feet not 1 foot and No i would never have brought it home as a pet Even though I thought about it for half a second 3. I never really hated Chimo I just well was annoyed that she ate my wedding presents and left the garbage alone. Lastly, for the record I did use hamburger in my spaghetti not cat. I am still really sorry you were so sick to your stomach (But as cruel as that was it was very funny MEOW!)

I just ask that in return, you don't tell John - I don't want him to know that I do laugh very hard when he is "having a Danny moment". You save me a seat close by you because I think I will need some guidance.But most of all more then anything I ask that you continue to guide us, watch over us and remind us that you may not be here physically but you are always watching over us and will always help when you can.

Be good and do not give the "big guy" a hard time. He does know a little bit more then you would think and well, Hes a bit older then you are. OH yeah and leave my keys alone will ya!

Your never to far to give me hell,
Love always your Favorite Daughter in law.

Monday, December 21, 2009

What Christmas Means to me

To MY children.
There is so many things to say to you this year, first off... I love you I love you for being you. I love you for making me cry, I love you for making me proud, I love you for making me laugh I love for you for making me shake my head But most of all I love you because you are just enough for me.

You are 4 of the most complex people I have ever meet, You are determined, open minded, understanding compassionate loving, empathetic, sympathetic, warm, intelligent, I could go on for days. But the most important thing you have given me the gift no other person would be able to give me. You gave me yourselves.

I am proud of your accomplishments, your success, i am proud of the hockey games I cheered for you at, I am proud of you when you are smiling, i am proud when you have a friend in need, I am proud when you win terrific kids awards, I am proud that you are YOU.

Your future is going to be full of obstacles, hurdles, and difficult siutations but I know I know that you will be able to work through each one and give it your best shot. I also know you know when to come to me for help.

never hesitate to come to me and tell me you are in trouble, never forget I will support you and your decisions as you grow and mature you will be able to handle it but do not have to. I will help you,

I cherish each of you, I love each of you and I will always be here to support and understand you.

Friday, December 4, 2009

its been a while since I last posted. So a quick update.

Well husband is back to work. hes now a dispatcher. Working nights. What a great postion for him. it suits him well. He loves to tell people what to do, and give direction. his nature.

Precious Cargo are awesome! Spoke with PC1's principal and had a wonderful covnersation about how well he is adapting.
PC2 well she is the one I rarely worry about.. but worry more about. She is such a brillant child but sometimes she has a the street sense of a marshmellow. She tends to open her mouth and insert her foot, she will stand up for her beleifs, morals and values But doesnt understand that it has to be in the right time and place.
PC3 well hes been okay, we are battle his eczema and of course it went right to his chest. Arghh.
PC4 what to say about her. She is the sweetest child, she has a heart of gold and wears it on her sleeve. She came home from school this week and told me that one of her friends stuck her tounge out at her and was so upset that she was mad at her. But then she was okay, after some loving from Mom.
Me, I am busy with School COuncil work, getting ready for Christmas and trying to stay sane. But soon discovered that I prefer being lower on the sanity scale the cookies are better.
So that is our update!

Saturday, November 14, 2009

What Type of Parent are you.

For ever, parents have always palyed good cop bad cop. Every parenting duo has two types of parents. The good cop, who rarely says no. ensures that the children get the Fun Stuff. . The Bad Cop is the discliplinary and has children do the work and the chores making sure that they have all the responsibilites taken care of before the FUN stuff. With our precious Cargos this is a tied position for my husband and I.

Being the "Bad cop" in our house is called the Lion. The Lion ensures that the chores are done, homework is done, everything is running smoothly. they correct any behavior that isnt appropriate etc.

Being the "Good Cop" in our is called the Gazelle. The gazelle ensures the fun stuff is ample, and lets them away with a bit more then normal, The gazelle is much more lienent then the lion and has boundaries but they are not as easily stressed as the Lions Boundaries.

My children have figured out which one of us is the gazelle and which one is the lion. The problem we have is that they have also figured out that there some things that Dad is more gazelle about then Mom, and vice versa. I admit sometimes I am a push over but in my defense Sometimes kids just need to be kids, they need to make it a little extra.

My husband will give in on things that I find more serious. he sweats the small stuff, when the poop hits the fan he is calm, cool and collected. I wish I could be that calm.

So this is where we draw the line. Both of us accept we have 4 weaknesses... Precious Cargos 1, 2, 3, and 4.